life hit her so hard! why did she put up with so much!she had to hurt herself to brake free but she was wrong!

life has hit her so hard she wonder how would it be to live a normal life with a husband and kids and a dog a cute one. she dreamed about the picket fence and two story house and barbecues with the family! she was tired of her childhood of being abused and used when ever people wanted. her word never mattered to anyone. she felt alone, and bad thoughts has trigger her at times. now she is just looking for a way out of her parents house! living there all her life has been a nightmare. being raped and abused has happened over and over again. she was tired of living. she was tired of telling people the truth but being seen as a liar. she try so hard not to be in the same place as her piers but to a fail. her parents always maid her feel like shit like she was the one causing all these things to happened. in other words they blame her and she had gotten hit numerous times. now she wanted out. she had had it and was gonna do what it takes to leave. one day she had gotten a job in mcdonnalds, and things had gotten a little better. she went to school and worked almost everyday to keep herself from going home as much. she prefer to go to work then be around her family. later on in the year she met someone, but truth is she didn’t expects this person to care. she always think everyone is out to get her and that would use her, so she stay away. trusting someone was hard for being that she had trusted a cusin with a secret she had and they told on her. as she continued to work and being dizzy she later on bumped with this cute guy again. this time she stated is it a sign, could this be real someone is interested in me can it be real. anyways she continue working and this young men came in consistently and order the same menu a double cheeseburger and a bottle of water, and always told me hey you look beautiful I’m not gonna front he maid me blush. he then sat in the table right in front of the register and read the newspaper and he kept on looking up towards me. then as he was finish and was throwing out his food he then ask for a curtesy cup of water and so I gave him water and he said thank you see you tomorrow I was shock he said tomorrow ok whatever I thought but no he did came the next day and this time he invited me out to eat but I couldn’t believe it I said no thank you then he said something in Spanish and I said you know Spanish he says yes I’m Puertoriquen I said oh shit I’m sorry I thought you was white no offense but he said non taken but now you gonna go out with me to dinner and that he was coming to get me after work I said ok then and I smile I was so nervous the hole day I drop things and my friend kept laughing at me there’s one more thing I had come to work this day in onion pajamas and a white t-shirt yes you herd right it had to be today oh lord so my friend then tells me you leave at 6pm today I said yes I do she laugh and tells me there is someone in the line for you I said stop playing no he is here and time I said oh my god he is really here I smile he is so cute but this scares me in my mind I said he forgot I hope anyways the next line was done and the girl ask him can I take your order but my friend told her no Nereida got it girl that’s for her I smile and blush a lot trust me I was so nervous and then it was his turn he said I just need a cup of water and ill be here waiting for you hope you bring an appetite I said why not another day he said no today so I said but I’m not dressed for dinner he says who cares but we gonna go eat dinner and so here we are walking out of my job and he takes me to Olive Garden and I was like oh no I look like a kid in pajamas he said dont worry I want to have dinner with you he came with bear his friend and his girlfriend and off we went to eat dinner we did have a good time and we laugh and laugh the food was so good and he was such a gentlemen he was such a sweet heart then we went to a couple dates and then I met his mom and sister and his dad things was moving to fast I was happy for once in my life I felt special important overjoy we then kept seeing each other one thing let the next and in a blink of a eye we ended living together and I was living with him for a while his mom was not happy she couldn’t stand my guts she told me all the time she had prefer him to be with another girl then me I have to say he defended me against her and everybody else she really hate me I thought but it wasn’t true she just as a mother wanted someone better for her son then time past and she teach me how to cook and how to clean the right way how to wash etc and so I became a women I then decide to go to my moms house to pick up my clothes and my mom beat me because I was leaving I couldn’t understand why she is hitting me I had gone to pick my things up with his sister and she told my mom why on earth are you hitting her you through her out so we taking her with us anyways I then just walked out with out my things but a few things I carry and walked out I was crying and he comfort me and maid sure I was ok he really did love me I never knew how much love felt and I finally saw it and felt it I was so happy I smile a lot I was so happy I love him with all my heart and I stood by his side through everything he then helped me go to college and he worked so many hours and he also went to college he was such an amaizing men he never change with me he work go to college and was home he didn’t hang out nor came at whatever time he felt like it he was responsible and honest I felt like I was in heaven like nothing could hurt me so I thought a couple of years later I started talking to my mom and spending time with her I even went to visit her without telling her but then the fights started I have to admit now I was blind defending her and she then would tell him lies about me and then more fights happened I had gotten tired of him telling me oh if you leave ill throw a party and have a different women everyday I’m not gonna cry he says so it got to the point that I got tired of him saying this and I became heartless I have to say I love this men with all my heart but hearing things like this made me so evil I didn’t feel anymore I was numb one day I just told him help me pack I’m leaving he actually cry he did on me he cry I couldn’t believe it but I left and he helped me leave the next day he did tell me to please dont leave that we have a family and that he dont want to brake the family but I had enough mind he wasn’t a bad men I hated that he came home and played baseball and watched baseball I have to say I was a bit immature because knowing now I would have stay and never broken our family because now a days I prefer a men to be in doors with me then out and about meaning I broke the family because I was tired but it was because there was too much going on my grandma dyed of cancer my mom driving me crazy and the bickering with him and feeling less got me I always told him I am so sorry I broke the family but I felt like people was just punching from left to right ask the time so I needed out but the truth is I needed out from the drama not my family everything was just confusing and I maid the wrong choice to leave and well I had to live with it but I thank god we have a son and we remain friends I say I will always love my white boy I then had to live with the choice I maid to leave I super like I never did but my ego didn’t let me let him know that I maid a mistake and that I wanted to come home sometimes we make decisions when we are upset and we dont think and they turn out to be thing that hurt us the most dont let this happen to you because you destroy something real of anger

Published by ladycraftsalot83

Hey everyone my name is Nereida and I am happy to be here and I will post pictures of my knitting or crochet and anything crafting. I will also post like any adventures I get into as well as planner things. I also luv to read and listen to music and I haven't pain but that's on my list boy ya this is going to be a kook adventure I can't wait to start. I a mother of a 15 years old son name yavan and I also have a set of twin girls Ashley and Ariana they are 7 years old. I luv my kids they mean the world to me and they complete me in every way. I also have a knitting podcast name ladycraftsalot83 podcast here is my link for Herbalife team beauty

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